The Dragonfly's Song: Christmas May Have Come Early

Our Journey So Far

September 1995: Got pregnant by then fiance (later ex-husband) while on BC using condoms. Lovely.

December 1995: Married!

July 1996: DS was born.

October 1998: Divorce. Commence full time schooling coupled with full time working and single parenting. I give up sleeping.

October 1998-January 2002: Complete more degrees than any sane person really needs. Got head on straight, found professional employment in the law enforcement field. Commence getting shot at and chased by dogs.

February 2002: Met J and pretty much knew that it was all over for me.

October 2004: Period of separation that was necessary as we each had to take care of ailing parents.

August 2005: My dad dies, his mom gets better, we pick up where we never really left off (Thank God for T-Mobile free nights and weekends!) We spend the next several years settling into becoming a family. Except one thing is missing...

July 2009: Married. Finally!

August 2009: Flush the BCP's down the drain. Let's have a baby!

December 2009: Decide to TTC. AF never shows up. Pregnant? Nope. Just no AF for months and months on end. Donated lots of blood for lots of test, everything is normal. Internal and external ultrasounds are normal.

August 2010: AF makes a joyous return. To this day no one can tell me why this happened. Commence baby making!

2011

March: Dr. appointment- short version: I'm getting old, best get on with it. I'm told to start charting (what's that?), told to check CM (excuse me?!?), and oh by the way, you have this thing called a cervix that also needs to be checked (yeah, right!). I left the appointment giggling to myself. After all, I was the woman who got knocked up through two different forms of BC!

April: Stubbornness ensues. We decide that all of the above mentioned isn't necessary and just take it naturally. Yeah right! BFN.

May: Begin charting and learning all about my CM and cervix, discover late ovulation and short LP (10 days). BFN

June: Added lots of vitamins and saw drastic improvement in O date and LP. BFN.

July: FF says I O'd, I don't believe it. Anovulatory. BFN.

August: Early in the month I met with a new OB/GYN, she diagnosed us with infertility for unknown reasons and referred us to an RE in November.

My August chart was the best chart yet. BD timing was the best it's ever been, everything looked great- right up until AF showed up. BFN.

September/October: Began the chart that would never end. On CD 45 I was finally graced with dotted crosshairs on CD 22. To date, I am still not pregnant and I have still not started. ARG!!

November: Canceled RE appointment because insurance wouldn't cover it. BFN

December: BFN

2012

10/18/11

Christmas May Have Come Early

I don’t know how to formulate a post that covers what I’m feeling right now so I’ll just say that when I took my temperature this morning (after warring with myself for ten minutes wondering if there was even any point) I discovered this:

See??? Do you see what I did? That’s right, a HA-UGE temperature drop! Could it be? Could AF FINALLY be on her way?

Oh please-oh please-oh please!!!!

I’ve been spotting all afternoon, nothing that warrants a liner or anything, just enough to give me hope. I’m praying so hard that tomorrow will be the day that I can finally say is CD1. I am so ready for this long 51 day cycle to end I can’t even see straight. I’ve been so worried that this could turn into another eight to ten month dry spell. It looks, at least right now, that that won’t be the case.

Whew!

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10/18/11

Christmas May Have Come Early

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