Aaaaaand my sister in law just called to tell us that she's pregnant with her second child.
I'm happy for her, I really really am. I'm not kidding when I say that I love her dearly and that I really am happy for her.
She's three and a half weeks along now.
Great.
Now I feel like an ass.
Ouch. No matter how much you love her and are happy for her, I know it still stings! :( Hugs...
ReplyDeleteI totally understand. I call it "too" jealousy. It's not that you wish you were pregnant INSTEAD of her; you just wish you were pregnant TOO. As excited as you are, I completely relate to the deep sense of longing that you're also feeling. Hang in there....
ReplyDeleteThank you both for your kind comments- it really is a strange feeling! My SIL is 42 and has only been trying now for three months, I think I was just surprised that it happened so easily and quickly for her. I couldn't have handpicked someone that I would have loved more to have as a sister so I'm trying really hard not to let her know that I feel anything but happiness for her.
ReplyDeleteAnd Dorothy, I loved your comment about "too" jealousy! That's precisely it! Thank you!
Oh that is sooo hard! I find it weird how my reaction is split between people I don't really love (leads to sobbing and depression) and people I do actually love (and I end up in this weird place between happy and not.....kinda numb...but mainly happy). My best friend is expecting in Nov. and was scared to tell me.....I had to explain it's just different when I love someone so much and would never not be happy for her. And she tried for two years for her first....when someone has "been there" it seems to be easier too.
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